Tears rolling down your cheek, with your knees trembling and wanting to hit the floor and with your fist crushing your shirt, you cried one night, “Lord! Save me! I’m sorry for all the sins that I’ve committed.” And that night turned out to be the most peaceful night because you felt the love of God over your life and you said, “Lord! I love you.”
But one day that old sin found you again. You once thought that it was dead. But deep inside you, in the place you never knew it had its life. No tears, not on your knees, with your body feeling so weak and with your voice so dry you said to yourself, “Lord! Lord! Lord! I love you Lord! You know that I don’t want that sin anymore.” To escape the sin, you spent all your time with family. Though not yielded to the sin, there’s no peace left in you.
It happened the next day. You’ve never imagined that you’ll lose again to that old sin. That moment was like a vapor. It yielded shame, anger towards you and confusion leaving you depressed. You named yourself “Backslidden! Hypocrite!” Covering your face you thought “Lord! I’m unworthy!”